Locked in/ Locked out - Dismantling the Matrix within
I recently realized that there must be matrix (programs/structures) within my bodies, that enable non-perfection. Well, I obviously have known for years that there must be energies or structures that allow for suffering, but I think I have uncovered another level of these? Previously my understanding was more along the line of, if I am depressed, then there is going to be some depression being/ energy in my brain, or gut, or likely a few of them. I looked less as overall structures that allow for this, may retard healings, or allow for (constant) re-emergence of suffering energies (well, I looked, but did not find anything/ was blocked from finding anything yet).
For the suffering matrix on this planet (and in our bodies) to be kept up, there must be some deep structural energies, that keep our bodies imperfect, relatively slow to heal, block memory (from previous lives), etc. 26years of daily meditations, as well as working as a spiritual healer for 15years, and I e.g. still cannot remember previous lives, see auras or heal as effortlessly and quickly as the Marvel character – Wolverine.
Parallel to all these thoughts/ questions, I started to ask myself, why I mostly feel relatively cut off. I can do deep work, and have, I believe, assisted in doing large scale grid work. E.g. I kept seeing the Earth locked in/walled in with solid black energy walls/dome. As far as I can see these have come down, and all around us there should be far more Ultimate Good healing energies now. BUT I really have to work hard to connect with them. I kinda know/hope they are there, and if I intend to connect to them, I am relatively confident I can feel them, but it is not effortless and powerful. That kinda of connection has little effect on my inside/the space within my bodies.
So I believe I have found some structures now, that create/enable this locked out/locked in syndrome. I see this black wall/skin around my chakra hearts. (NB chakra heart, a ball of energy, in between the front and back chakra-vortex, from which, energy pumped in/ should flow to the rest of the relevant aura body). When I used to do healing work, I attune to pure Ultimate Good, and attempt to connect them to my chakra hearts, ramp up the purity of energies in my chakra hearts, but then trust that the energies would flow into the rest of each relevant aura body from there. It appears that that is/was not the case. That black wall/skin enveloping my chakra hearts seems to have kept those lovely Ultimate Good healing energies out of my body (from the inside). They also made it near impossible for negative and stale energies to effortlessly flow off, into the chakra hearts and be beamed into cosmic recycling heaps/energy rehab centers from there. So generally I can connect to Ultimate Good in a quantum way, but it seems a long and complicated way, and less effective yet, as a direct connection and flow path? These black skins/walls are pretty tough. I have been radiating/lasering/ and bombarding them with Ultimate Good Healing energies now for near two weeks, and still have not managed more then a few cracks. I.e. they seem to be self-healing, and connected to black energy back up centers, that feed back, all that Ultimate Good energies manage to remove. Which is fine though. I am confident, that Ultimate Good is also working on dismantling and clearing out those back up centers, I just have to be patient and bear with the process. Suffering/ evil has less and energies in reserve down here, and suffering energies are finite (even if they have mostly felt infinite for the last few decades (if not centuries), down here).
Another structure I have found is the same kind of black skin/wall just under my outer aura body skins/surfaces. This makes it difficult to feel / connect to Ultimate Good energies outside of my bodies. Even if I am surrounded by blinding, bright, powerful and abundant Ultimate Good energies around myself, I can feel locked in, forsaken, disconnected. I have to remember that they are there, visualise them and trust they are there.
There is likely similarly such black skin around my lung tissues and inside my gut, that do their best to isolate me/us from a free flow of Ultimate Good energies?
Why are they so difficult to dismantle? I reckon it is pretty logic. Once we manage to establish a strong unimpeded energy flow with Ultimate Good, everything inside of us, that still enables a matrix experience/suffering should melt away quickly? So the matrix gods/demon overlords will have invested much, to prevent that from happening? Imagine if we could all effortlessly access all our Ultimate Good Divine powers. We would remain completely unphased by any attempts to manipulate us into fear. We likely do not even need to eat or drink anymore? Maybe not even breath? We will be unconditionally loving and happy! Whatever suffering still tries to throw at us, we will simply smile, be happy and send shed loads of Ultimate Good Light and Live right back at them! Even if beings keep trying to poison our food, water, air, any damage from that will be healed near instantaneously. Plus we obviously will not age anymore (if we do not want to), and even be able to reverse ageing, that has happened already effortlessly. We will not even need med beds anymore. 😊